KAMALANI

Kamalani girl, don't cry for me
I won't be back
But I know I kept you
always in my heart.

Kamalani,
with your big brown eyes
won't you smile for me
just one more time?

Kamalani
don't long for me
live, smile and be free
the love between us will always be

Remember that you have my heart
and forever yours I have to part.
I leave you alone, my world has changed
when I see you there by the Ocean
I know nothing will ever be the same
I can't promise I will be back
But the love for eahc other, my dear....
will never die.


Yotuel 2008

The time I slept through New Year's Celebration

What can I say about New Year. I live in Las Vegas, one of the craziest places to spend New Year's Eve. You go out to the Strip by 6 or 7, you walk around with a crazy big drink that ties around your neck, one of those and you are OUT!!. You gotta experience that at least once.

I've lived here for too many years already, so I don't fancy the crowded strip. Us locals, as we call ourselves for living in town for over a few months, we don't do that stuff, we leave that for tourists or newcomers or for people that have somebody visiting town. Me and my friends we decided this year we were going to Hennesseys an Irish Bar in Downtown Las Vegas, it's a fun place and it seemed like a great idea.

I got off of work around 3 on New Year's Eve so I got plenty of time to chill at the house and clean up a little, you don't want to start the year with a dirty messy house. So by 5 my roommates were already back home, I was ready to go, dressed up and everything, I even got a new wig, I mean its Vegas the craziest town. We were just waiting for it to be time to leave the house and head to our party location. Somebody had the great idea of playing Rock Band, so we did, I grabbed my Les Paul guitar controller, Robert got the Mic, and Chris the drums, and we rocked that crowd like never before, funny thing was that the one fan from the back kept buying us tequila and Jager shots, so the concert kept going and the notes started missing, my fingers were cramping, but the sweet tequila running down my troat kept me going. It was9 when we gave up, we took our coats and we left the house heading to the big celebration. We met a few people out there, after that I don't remember much, it was all like a dream, my typical random pictures with strangers, remember a few calls on my cell, and walking around long distances. I did have a blast, next thing I know, around 11, I was dead tired and I just wanted to sleep. A couple of my friends drove me home, and I will be forever thankful for that, and I slept like a baby for the next few hours. The worst part of it all was the hungover I had the next day.

The fact is that I was really worried about having a great New Year experience, and you know what?? I did, it was the best, I didn't have to worry about calling people, I was completely relaxed and calm, and dreaming all this great dreams. My life was on hold for a night, time stopped when I was having the most fun, I didn't even have to worry about the kissing or not kissing at midnight scenario. I woke up refreshed, accomplished, with no sense of regret, and it was a great feeling. I know now what I need to do this year to make my life better. Thanks to this experience I know how I can be a better person for myself. I would tell you what my goals are, but I rather you see the results of me working on it. I became a better person that night and I am happy that I am were I am.

Have a great Year!!!

No one knows me

I go outside everyday

I walk around you everyday

You like me because I smile all the time

You say hi, you smile back

But you don't know me

You see me here

Some see me there,

I do things for people everyday

You say thanks, you smile back

But you don't know me

I care about you

I care about them

The world is mine to change

You look at me, you smile back

But you don't know me

I try really hard

To find friendship in you

I give you all my trust, my love, my hope

You take it all, and smile back

But you don't know me

I did all I could

I just needed a friend

You didn't care and I'm lonely again

You walked away, without smiling back

You don't want to know me

Life is Life

Why is it that we learn to be selfish. Days go by before we care to visit a friend. Is it all about drinking and going to clubs? What happened to the good all fashioned hiking, biking, sports or just enjoying people's company. Why does it always have to be about what people have to offer or how good somebody is for you? We take frienship for granted, we step on people that genuinely care. We party all the time and we forget how amazing life is. We are here in a planet that has water, that provides what we need to live, that's all we need to do, LIVE. There is room for every one of us and NO, you are not the only one that has suffered en deserves happiness, care to ask the person standing next to you, I'm sure they also have a story to tell. Life isn't perfect is just life.

La historia de Maria

Esta es la historia de una muchacha joven de no mas de 30 años de edad que de tez blanca como las nubes en el cielo, de ojos verdes con un brillo que deslumbra a quien se atreve a mirarlos directamente pues esa luz encandescente viene de su alma que muestra todo lo es ella, resultado de los sucesos de su vida. Su cuerpo muestra sus habitos de una alimentacion saludable y una rutina de ejercicio muy estricta, es delgada y con unas piernas bien torneadas que son visibles bajo las minifaldas que siempre usa. Se pueden ver un par de tatuajes en su cuerpo, uno en la espalda formado por un sin numero de flores rodeando a una mariposa, y otro un poco mas arriba del tobillo, ese es dificil de describir pues semeja un dibujo abstracto con lineas y espirales. Mucha gente la juzga al verla pues no la conocen. Y es que despues de haber sufrido de abusos sexuales cuando era una niña y de haber perdido al amor de su vida justo antes de casarse en una guerra injusta de la que nunca regresaria decidio vivir cada dia, disfrutar y hacer lo que ella sentia, con un gato negro como unica compañia vive en una vieja casona al pie de una colina, con un jardin de rosas en el patio vive sin remordimientos y sin restricciones. Cuentan por ahi que su vida es loca, que sale todos los dias, que tiene amorios por donde quiera, que nunca para. Pero ella guarda un secreto, del momento mas oscuro de su vida, ella estuvo embarazada y un dia asi como caen las hojas en otoño, ella perdio aquello que en su vientre crecia y que era lo unico que le quedaba de quel amor que en su corazon por siempre permaneceria. Fue ese ultimo evento lo que marco su vida para siempre.

Maria, es su nombre, y vivir la vida su profesion.
"Esta Maria esta incontrolable" diria la gente que no la conoce. Pero para los que la conocen Maria es la persona mas fuerte, sincera, caritativa, humilde y feliz que pudieran encontrar en la faz de la tierra, siempre con una sonrisa, dispuesta a ayudar al necesitado y viviendo para vivir.

My life before and after you

I had everything figured out, I was going to Vet School, I thought, my "destiny" if there is one was to bemarried to my profesion and to live happy doing what I love doing, no marriage, no kids in my life no family life of my own. I adapted to that thougth eventually, as love never came to my life.

Now I found it, exactly what I was looking for, a loving and caring man that made me feel a woman again, that makes my life incredible everyday. I can see myself living a happy life by his side. How can I decide, how can I give it away, how can I live with myself knowing what I had and let go?

If I want happiness it is by your side, I should stay, but if I look at my commitments I may go.... and I don't want to anymore.

Life CAN be beautiful!!!

One day you are living the same routine, working, exercising, going back home, occasionally meeting with some of your friends and going to your favorite bar. You like your life and you are standing there thinking that you are on top of the world.

It is amazing how much of a difference one person can do in your life. Good change or bad change, your life is never going to be the same.

In my case is a good change I never thought that love really existed, I believed that you create a relationship and work on it and then you care enough for the other person to say that you love them.

But now I understand, you have to meet the right person, there is one for me, he is out there and I was very lucky to find him. My life has been beautiful ever since. I love this change!!!