The curse of my relationships

People ask me why I'm not in a relationship, how can I stand the loneliness. It is hard to explain, it's not something I choose to do, or maybe it is. I love my life the way it is, my job, my friends, my family, everything stable all the time.
On the other hand I like feeling loved, cared for, getting a hug, a kiss, making love, getting flowers, a letter, romance. Problem is I'm cursed, It seems that I can't have that, I fall in love and I get heart broken everytime, I give my soul and get nothing back. May be it's just not for me, not too long ago I decided to let go, just try it again, give love a chance... everything seems fine, nice guy, great moments together, two weeks later, life's a mess again, no time no see. It's just bad luck, bad timing, should not get attached to anyone, people are unpredictable, one they with you, then away.

I still have those words in my mind...

What ever happened to LOVE???, I fall in love, I give myself away, I resign to things I love and care, I start living around someone... then all of a sudden I realize that my life is not as great as I thought it would be, I'm not happy, I deserve more.

I still remember those words, they are stuck in my mind, they follow me around, they haunt me at night. "If you find someone that loves you and cherish you, go on and be happy, I may regret letting you go". Why push me away like that, if you love me, why not fight for me, make me happy.

I guess there is no perfect relationship. And since I heard that I decided I am not going to suffer again. I deserve love, because I give love, nothing less.